I didn’t know what I wanted out of life. The only focus I had as a child was to grow up, get married and have children. I really believed that, if I could find my prince charming, I would live happily ever after. I don’t think I’ve ever been alone in that conquest. A lot of people want to find that special someone who will fill the void in their life. Someone to love and care for them. Blame the Cinderella stories, listen to all the love songs and movies that are out there and they all tell us the same thing.
As an adult, I did not know what my true potential was – didn’t even know where to look. It seemed that even when I started to venture out, someone would come into my life. Putting other people’s wishes before mine, I would live their dream. I didn’t know that I could write or paint. I thought everyone else was gifted and talented, but not me. I felt that I didn’t quite make the grade – an underachiever – a jack of all trades – a master of none. What was my purpose? The more I tried to make my own way in life it would be interrupted through circumstances, and the cycle would start all over again. It didn’t seem to matter how many self help books I read, or counselling sessions I’d attended, I couldn’t seem to get it together. It wasn’t until I came to the end of the road about twelve years ago, and committed my life to the Lord, that things began to change. I knew that He was the only answer for me. I invited Him to take control and to lead and guide me, and now I am not the same person I used to be. I have found freedom in Christ and now I’m beginning to blossom.
God has encouraged me through many dreams and prophecies over recent years. I had a word spoken over me in 2008 through a prophet called Fayleen Sparks. Some of the words she said to me were; “…the dessert is gonna blossom like a rose. Surely the cold north winds blew! You are a garden enclosed. You are one who is protected. And I’m bringing you forth even with a new beauty – with a new flourishing – with a new coming forth! And my Word is gonna produce – as Jesus was a tender shoot planted in a dry ground – not just thirty fold, not just sixty fold, but the garden of the Lord. It’s a new planting…”
Now its nearly the end of 2014 and I look forward to 2015 with a new vision and purpose.
Psalms 1:2-3 NLT
“But they delight in the law of the LORD, meditating on it day and night. They are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit each season. Their leaves never wither, and they prosper in all they do.”